
"So what would you think of me now?
So lucky, so strong, so proud.
I never said thank you for that.
I never said thank you for that.
Now I never have a chance."
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Idag är en så där smått jobbig dag. En dag som bara tar tag i en och drar ner en totalt. En dag då man inte vill annat än att ligga i sängen, sova, lyssna på musik och bara sluta tänka för en stund.
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Today's a hard day. A day that pulls you down so low that you just wanna scream. A day that makes you wanna stop thinking for a while, a day that makes you wanna lay in bed, sleep, listen to music and just be alone. I've been dreaming about NYC, BDC and my lovely friends all over the world for more than a week now. Dreamt about my mentor Jamie and his amazing classes, about me, Lisa, Yizhen and Tati in the apt eating chinese food, the Lion Kung musical, the times in Central Park and all the walking around doing absolutely nothing on the streets of NYC. I really miss it and I just feel so lost here at home sometimes. Like I'm doing everything right and at the right time but somewhere in my mind I still feel off, like I'm in the wrong place at the wrong time and doing the wrong things in the wrong way.. It's hard to explain the feeling, but I do feel lost..
And I miss Yizhen, Tatiana and Lisa. I never thought that I would feel like this, but nothing's the same without them. I do have alot of friends here, important friends, but still, I feel lonely. It's weird, I know. It's hard AND sad to admit that. I have so many friends around me but still I'm walking around with this feeling of total lonelyness. I just miss them, that's all. Alot.
Over and Out//
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